tahira’s journal entry today
welcome to the unwritten club – a community dedicated to journaling for a healthier you. today, our founder and ceo, Tahira, shares the first of many journal entries you’ll find here.
universe,
I’ve thought about this a lot…my individualism. why do I feel so comfortable ‘on my own?’ Am I really ‘on my own’? I don’t think I’ve ever truly been…whether in human, or nature, I’ve always been anchored. I’ve never done anything on my own. Everything has been taught…connected to someone or some ideal of theirs…one made with a mind that requires a beating heart.
I’m truly in community with a lot of people…but, especially myself, second to God. I’m everything I am because of source…and the origins of it, my roots…their thoughts. It’s so silly that we’re taught that we do everything ‘on our own’… as Americans, at least. Individualism isn’t real when you grow to unlearn your internalized narcissism.
It’s natural, then, for me to take this next step, back into living with people. I was taught to value the privilege of living alone. I did it for 5 years…I traveled alone many times before that…had entire nights alone so many times. And there’s value there, for sure, in hearing my own thoughts and having space to process…but, I’m also realizing that we have more than enough space to do that [in community] if we’re not ON TOP of one another.
I’m realizing that that’s what individualists think, [community] is all about…moving as a collective constantly…group-think…a constant ‘I’m-obligated-to’ loop…but that’s not community at all. That’s what individualists think it is because if they didn’t…they’d have to admit that they’ve actually never had an original thought…it all came from somewhere or someone or something.
Maybe we’ve actually thought for ourselves like 1% of the time…I’m not embarrassed by that. I think it’s beautiful, and perhaps it’s teaching me everything.
I truly need to know about myself: I am a cumulative body of work.
Tahira is the founder and ceo of the unwritten club, a journaling community helping people heal, reflect, and grow. She started journaling, nearly twenty years ago, to heal and create her dream life, and she’s now helping others do the same.